i haven't started on my ying yong wen. its been about 5 minutes? i don't know and don't care. sometimes i want to work really hard. i don't mind all the essays and stuff that we get. i don't wanna complain. but its hard not to complain when it all comes at once. and everything has to be passed up at the same time too. sec three life is not easy. i wanna- haha. i sound suicidal. its about time for eunice to start asking me whether i'm alright. and that i should calm down. its time for charlotte to ask me for cold fries and play baa baa with me. its time for yi ning to give me that "you sang the wrong note" look and make me laugh. its time for kai qi to squeeze my cheeks and for me to try and run away from her. its time for chee shan to tell me that the world is not over. its time for denise to draw something and for me to oo over it. i just want life back to the way it was last time. because everything is different now. i feel very very hopeless. oh no... i want to -
